I’m having carpal tunnel surgery this week. Ahh! And I’m stressing hard.
The first time I had surgery, it was awful and everything went wrong and I was miserable. So, the second and third time I had to be cut open I went into full panic mode. Even though both of those times went fine, I can’t wrap my mind around the idea that everything will be okay.
I’m so worried it’s not even going to help. My hand and wrist hurt every day. I can’t hold a pen for very long without my fingers cramping. I can’t hold heavy items with one hand. I can’t stir food. I can’t clasp a necklace. I can’t hold a nail polish brush. I really started to come to grips with the fact that my hand just doesn’t work and I was going to live that way forever. But then the pain started, and I can’t handle constant pain in another part of my body. So, surgery it is.
But what if it doesn’t work!
Ugh. That’s all. Send me all the good vibes. And remember you can support me on Patreon to help pay my medical bills haha.