My little man is now two months old! I can’t believe it. It still feels like yesterday I brought him home. And he’s getting so big! The day we came home, I could hold his whole body with just one hand. Now, he’s so long I need two hands when I feed him. He’s also putting on some weight finally. He’s got a double chin and some chunky little thighs. I’m sure other breastfeeding mamas can relate to the paranoia about whether or not your baby is getting enough food. It’s so nice to be seeing positive results at last.
Sleeping has gotten better. Most nights I get at least six hours, so I don’t feel so exhausted overall. There are still the nights that he wants to be up late eating, but they’re not as often. Now the problem is just getting him to stay asleep once I put him down. I’ve been working on the “put him down drowsy” concept and sometimes it works. Napping is also improving. He’s almost on a schedule of waking and sleeping during the day so I’m able to be more of a person again. Again, it doesn’t work perfectly every day, but that’s okay. At least we’re making progress.
Getting him on a schedule has helped me get back on a schedule. I’m able to eat all three meals of the day with only minimal interruption since we plan them around his schedule now. Sometimes that means a late lunch or an early dinner, but it’s better than it was. It’s important to eat enough so that I can feed him. Aside from that, I’m able to do things I want to do again. I can read and write when he’s napping. And I can clean (not that I really want to do that) when he sits in his vibrating chair or lays on his play mat. His big brother has been spending more time with him too, so that helps me be able to leave the room once in a while to take care of other things.
But now we’re taking on another challenge. Maternity leave is over and I’m back to work. And it’s been super tough on me. I hate leaving him, even though I know I can trust the people taking care of him. I just miss his little face so much. And it also shifts my schedule yet again. I hope we can easily find the flow of routine so we can all be happy.
I’m so excited for him to grow. He’s been cooing and giving us little smiles. He’s obsessed with baby videos on Youtube and he loves going outside. I can’t wait for him to start crawling and talking. But I know I shouldn’t rush this. Being back at work, though, this time is going to fly by. Just not too fast, I hope.